Hi there,

I'm not sure if you notice this, but it's been so long since I share my personal matters on social media. I upload pictures, lots of it, only because that's what I always do. But music, or feelings, thoughts, sentiments, I just simply can't find a reason to post them anymore. Btw, this post is not a negative look back on myself, but rather an explanation, a diary explaining why I've been this way.

It started first as a matter of time, of priority. When you didn't even have time to breathe, it was so hard to have the luxury of writing out what's on your mind. Don't get me wrong. I really enjoyed that period of my university life, when I immersed myself in many projects. Of school, of academic contests, of competitions & everything. I learned a lot. Experienced a lot. There were ups. And downs.

But 20yo me thinking I could do and wanted to do them all, and then got caught up in that chain of deadlines that got me no time for myself. I still hung out with friends, still went to nice places, traveled from time to time. But like every time I said to myself remember to write about this, I've already got trapped in a new deadline. Eventually, I got out of it but then things got a new turn.

I had an internship at a technology firm after that. It is an analysis-kind-of job. Idk, when I first heard about it, I thought I would do all the fancy things, of a business job. You know, joining meetings, raising ideas, analysing needs, dealing with stakeholders, etc. It never strikes me that all of that is just writing.

Looking back now, I can see that I spent 80% of my time for writing. Writing all the way. From 9am to 6pm. It's not a bad thing. I actually really like it tho. I love my job. I love the product. I get excited thinking of what I could do with it. But the downside is I really struggle of writing for me in my freetime. I can't find the motivation. I feel too lazy. Fed up with writing at the end of the night. Feared that my words could get too technical. Too formal.

So idk, I guess I've been mostly too lazy to write. But there are so many things to share with you. My life has changed so much, in a good way. And I cannot express how much appreciated I am. I traveled like crazy. I met so many new people and all of them are so interesting af in their unique way. So many good music. I dont watch as many films as I used to but I can recommend some very good series haha.

I guess I'm still finding my own voice, in this crazy and busy life of mine. I want to explore the world. Priority matters. But you should put yourself on top of everything. It's too easy to get lost these days. You do a lot of things but don't have time for reflection then how could you know if that impacts you right? Focus on yourself and I hope everything else will fall into places. And I guess that's what year-end is for :).

So here's to another random reflection of mine (that I probably will delete it soon haha).

This picture was taken at Baozi by Van using my pns #35mm